Just over three years ago, I became involved in the rescue
community, and finally found what my life had been missing for so long…a purpose. After that very first foster experience
(Heidi and the barracudas), I finally realized what I had been put on this
earth to do. I fostered many times over
the last three years. One of the very
best days of my life was foster failing with Ollie. My heart has been broken so many times (for
example, Riley) when my foster moves on to their forever home, but seeing those
dogs finally get their forever made it all worth it.
Unfortunately, all of that is coming to an end. And I’m walking away. It’s not a decision I take lightly, and to
say I’m devastated is the understatement of the century. But it’s what has to happen.
The fact is, the last three times we’ve had fosters for longer
than one night, things have happened. Bad
things. In October, the day Boscoe was
adopted, Tucker had his incident.
In December, Simon was adopted, but Tucker had been battling abnormal
kidney levels as well as hair loss. Thankfully
a food change righted that. And now,
with our current foster, Tucker has begun to go after Ollie. Last night and
this morning, Tucker mounted and began to fight Ollie. Ollie didn’t immediately submit, so it
escalated. We were able to break each incident
up, but it was beyond scary. Tucker also
went after the foster this morning when she got too close to his ball. She immediately backed down, but that was the
end of it for me. They are all now
separated, and unfortunately, our foster is being returned to rescue.
I’m heartbroken. I’ve
NEVER returned a dog to rescue. I’ve
stuck by my fosters, no matter how many blankets they shredded, how many times
they had accidents in the house, or how many times I was woken up in the middle
of the night. It’s part of the
process. It’s what I do. But not anymore.
I feel like I failed. I
feel like I failed Athena (our foster). I
feel like I failed all of the dogs that won’t get to come to our home. But mostly I feel like I failed my own dogs,
for not listening to them when they so clearly said “mama, we don’t like having fosters
for more than one night”. I was blinded
by the fact that they are DAMN GOOD foster brothers, and have helped out so
many dogs. But just because they’re good
at it, doesn’t mean they enjoy it. I can’t
ignore them any longer.
At this point, I’m not even sure what’s going on between Tucker
and Ollie is fixable. I think it is, and
I think with time and work, we can get back to normal. But I don’t really know… I don’t
know if adding a third adult dog shook up the pack dynamic to the point Tucker felt
he needed to assert his dominance over Ollie.
I don’t know if it’s a medical issue that hasn’t been diagnosed. I truly don’t know what’s going on. What I DO know is we have zero issues when
there isn’t a third dog in the house and since the common denominator seems to be fostering, I'm walking away...
I have a call in to the vet, and have emailed a dog trainer, as
well as a trusted dog friend. I WILL get
to the bottom of this, and I WILL do what is best for my dogs. For the time being (and the unforeseeable
future), that means no fosters.
None. Zip, Zero, Zilch. I’m hoping a foster free home will allow
things to go back to normal. If not, vet
visits will be in order and training will be done. I will do whatever is needed, and will stand
by my dogs 100%. As much as I’ll miss
fostering, they come first, and that’s all there is to it.
Having said all this, does NOT mean I’m leaving the rescue
world. I just have to take a different
angle. I will still help run Doghousing,Inc. and will get involved in other ways.
Maybe it’s time to start volunteering at a local shelter, or start transporting. I’m not sure where I’ll go from here, but I
know the options are out there.
I’m have no doubt I’ll have critics of my decision, and that’s
okay. There’s always drama in rescue
anyway, so I’m used to it. But I feel
like it’s necessary to be completely transparent, and to let people know WHY I’m
going to be saying no when asked to foster. The bottom line is I must do what’s
best for me and for my boys, and I stand firmly by the decision I made today.